happy birthday to me...

wow...my day has come..how time really flies...33 years passed n im so blissful n grateful for wht i am now. thank you to my lovely mum n devoted late father who brought me here now...no words or money can replace their affectionate love for being patient n loving...even though my dad was not here anymore i always feel that he is always around n checking me out...he always in my heart..as age adding our life span is shorten...yess..life is short n the clock clicking away all the the precious time that we have...im struggling to achieve something in my life that i if i die i will be the most happiest person...something that i can contribute to others..give benefits..give hope and life..im not a doctor but i dont want to die in vain...too sad n heart broken...but it will never stop me to be a happy person..stronger n bolder...God gives us chances as we learn throughout our life..grab them n explore all the chances in front of us...who knows it will be our lucky day...
i live by taking chances...i believe in miracles...good or bad...its still an opportunity n i will learn from it.i have my ups n downs as our life is like a roller-coaster.one thing that i learn..never look down on others as we might end up to be like them...learn not to follow the bad examples.sometimes i stumble as i am just too weak to resist the temptation but we have to return to basics...faith!no one is perfect as we r not God!who r we to judge others as we r too imperfect...ive learn a lot bout judge-mental..my whole entire life has been judged by others through physicals n mental...been crushed so many times as im not up to the standard of society..but im not burn of the facts of it.im still here..ALIVE..thank you GOD for all the chances HE gives as i  do sometimes being so ignorant about HIM...forgives me...
i dont know how long i will live..(not becoz im ill now) i hope there is still kindness among us...no discrimination, no hatred among us...and the most important part..i hope i can still live in a peaceful n united society no matter ur skin, beliefs and races.im so glad i live in MALAYSIA...i dont hope too much about my dreams but no harm of dreaming!
thank you for all the birthday wishes n supports...i'll see u again...adios!

olympic 2012-london

Lin Dan n Lee Chong Wei

yep..everyone has been following it including myself.oh!its fasting month-n i've been fasting for almost 2 weeks..alhamdulillah..tiring but manageable. the weather really playing their role by effecting me....too hot n now cloudy...drink a lot of water as this kind of weather might make u fall sick easily. so comeback to the story of olympic..msia has been waiting so long to bag golds especially in badminton but just managed to silver...so r we lucky enough this time?let's cross our finger that tonight Dato' Lee Chong Wei will manage to do it against arch rival Lin Dan from China...i bet it will be thrilling...n just for the info we lost to korean doubles just now by straight games..so bronze to korea...as ive watched the match i realize something..we r lack of motivation..meaning weak mental strength...easily giving up...n thousands of reasons...yup..im not an athlete but im a big fan of sports...to sad n heart broken to watch the game n easily lost...
then i've watched women volleyball match between China n Korea...really interesting n full of spirits how these players strive to get points...China trailed by 9 points but in the end they won the 1st round..how i wish msian players can take the spirit of not giving up like wht these Chinese players have done...so i hope LCW will do it this time!!GO MALAYSIA!!MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!



p/s: lost in a rubber set..but LCW had done a tremendous job...u r our hero!!

Euro 2012

yeaaahhhh...football fans' time has come...the most awaited moment finally arrived as yesterday EURO 2012 began.me...hahhaha...im one of the million fans of the game.favourites??hmmm...nope..no favourites but im anxious to watch the first game of Italy n Spain tomorrow and Germany v Portugal today. as yesterday's result; Poland drew 1-1 with Greece and Rep Czec lost 1-4 to Russia. i was able to watch the first game between Poland and Greece...phewww...unbelievable...2 red cards were drawn each for the team. as i was still upset with the result of Msia v Spore due to-i can say unwise decision of the ref n this time around it was still the ref's fault.huhuhu...wht the heck..but fine..they r just human being...so let it be as they r doing their job..be a ref..
while im updating my blog, my tv is on n im watching Netherlands v Denmark game.;p...hehehhe...my sleeping hour will change n i bet most of the football fans in Msia will be having problems of sleeping n waking up late.(6 hours different time) my advise..switch on ur alarm or sleep early n then wake up just for the sake of watching a game.
so to those who was unable to watch it on tv u still can get the results here ...
guess that's all for now...gotta go...persie n sneijder...way to go guys....!!!oh..Denmark scored...1-0...so enjoy EURO 2012 people...adios!

French Open

i hardly watched a tennis match but something really interesting bout this year as i watch(am watching) French Open,a match between Djokovic v Tsonga. it was such a game as Djokovic is the first seed for the tournament and Tsonga is the home crowd fav as he is a French. such a mind blowing game n till now(as a matter of fact still watching it) it was more than 2 hours. surprisingly, Tsonga is leading. maybe i dont even understand some of the terms in tennis but i think it is an interesting game. love the moment of the crowds watching the match as they are totally different from football crowds. so decent n nice..no swearing but clapping their hands. i believe the history of this game is meant for wealthy people so those who watched it are from noble n cultured society. hence we can see it till now the way they behaved on the court except the game is now for everyone. How sports unite people from different background n it is a luxurious earning job nowadays. wish i can turn back the time and be a sportsman...;)..
nothing much to be said as im going to continue my new pleasure in tennis..see ya!

novak djokovic

jo wilfried tsonga

Blessings

my life is like a rollercoaster...enjoying myself by joyriding here n there...
but somehow i ask forgiveness from GOD for my sins...
HE blessed me with guilty conscious...a blessing in disguise
everyone is blessed with GOD's love....but
do we realize how much HE loves us?
do we love HIM the way we suppose to love HIM?
do we love HIM more than our wealth, beauty and success?
do we love HIM for all the darkness we face in our life?
do we appreciate HIM for all the good n bad things that happen in our life?
we always forget for all the blessings that were given to us...
we never take HIM fully in our life
we always being ungrateful for all the things that we get 
we are selfish creature BUT
GOD always blesses us with HIS love, forgiveness n kindness
i feel so tiny and ashamed...
thank you GOD for blessing me throughout my life...

enjoy the song...

unwell...

wht a hectic week...n im down with fever n flu..o gosh...cant do anything as im still recovering with all the aches n hot temperature...n been stacked in the house made me like a crazy person...resting is the best way...i didnt go to see a doc but instead made my own medication...honey...hot water...fresh fruits...n...blanket...oo...ginger...lost my appetite...so i took wheat crackers...that's all i've been eating the whole day...
n today i went out coz i couldnt stand it anymore the glum n gloom atmosphere...hahaa...watched the movie WRATH OF THE TITAN..good movie even though i felt something knocking in my head...a really throbbing headache...i managed to watch it ALONE!then i went home took a rest for a while then went out again...being sick is not stopping me to enjoy my week...i had few bundles of books on the table n none of it i checked through...(sigh)...
Monday till Tuesday i went to work even though a very croaky voice came out but work is still work...lost the golden voice...hukhukhuk...thought i managed to go to work for the whole week but today..im down n cant even talk anymore...n thats it...doc here i come...so it was an MC..sorry friends...so i was resting the whole day n just took a few slices of bread...
i'll c ya again..as i need a nap now..ive just taken my medication...soo...zzzzzzzzzz....

my weekend...

hey there...how's ur weekend?i hope u guys have a wonderful week.as i told in my previous post of how my hectic life totally ruined my slumber life in my house..so this week i FINALLY did my house chores..yippie!wht a day for me...but gladly done my job!thought of washing my car but then..got stuck in my house so washing car..still in the list(huhuhu..sorry baby u hv to wait!)n basically my whole weekend i didnt go anywhere except for my tuition classes n went out to pack my dinner n that's the only thing that i ate..pity!i think im losing too much weight as i lose my appetite...but still energetic..its a good news as i can fit in all these clothes that i barely squeezed when i was a bit plump..;p.my advise...dont follow my way in losing ur weight ..i used to cycle back n forth for almost 6km to work n did my diet regime but now i already moved to a new house so no cycling for me...but still manage to climb up n down stairs of my house everyday..so no excuse of not exercising...n dont eat rice but change it to wholegrain bread...but being malaysians..we are hardly to ignore rice in one of our daily meals...so do some improvisation...dont take dinners instead take fruits n veggies...full of vitamins n nutritious...this is wht i have done..
so cmon people...start our life by being healthy...do some exercise even just strolling in the park with ur family..it will be fun n the essential part is being HAPPY n SMILE...

n enjoy this song as i always move my myself by listening to it...lets dance people!!
enjoy ur weekend!!me sign out for now

TRANSITION

whttt!!its already february 2012!!oh noo...im soo not into blogging anymore due to my responsiblity at work.hectic life totally overrun my sweetest time...even my home is totally a mess..haha...lazy bum i am...;p..so wht is the new story?
as u can read my post tittle..TRANSITION means transforming (not transformer the movie..hehe) or changes...i always respect people who wanting to change for better as we r not perfect.we are humane in nature neither angels nor God.we are perfectly made by HIM to have brain to think and heart to feel n physical ability to perform the duty as HIS humble servant. i believe second chance.true..we made (make..still going on) so many uncountable mistakes in our life...tht is why God gives us time for redemption.a time to get back wht we have lost n hopefully we will get something greater than wht we can imagine.am i turning into a motivator or spiritual seeker?am not a motivator but maybe have found soul in me.sometimes we tend to forget wht we gain is better or beyond the clueless life of us as we have been fooled by the MATERIALISTIC world and forget why GOD send us here...now.
we have purpose in life.a MUST!simple...why do i need to wash my clothes?becoz i need to wear those clothes again n i dont want people to squeeze their noses as in smelling like a dead fish just walk past them...hahha..why do i need to eat?becoz i want to be healthy n able to move anywhere without thinking about my medication.why do i need to pee?becoz my bladder is full n i cant stand it anymore...;p a simple fact but true..all of our life have purpose n we ought to learn from it.learning is a lifetime lesson.we cant find it in a classroom but tru the experience in life.and simply we cant judge people for things that happen in their life.

problems...circumstances...obstacles...these are beyond our power.why is this happening?the question arises EVERYTIME something bad happen to us n we start pointing fingers to others but not to ourselves.as 1 finger is pointing to someone another 4 is pointing back to us.yeaahhh...we tend to get upset when things didnt turn right..mad at something n lash it out to express how mad we r...or even post it in fb or twitter...hahaha...the current trend...things happen for a reason n only HE knows..dont be mad..dont be sad..it is not the end of the world...learn n only you can find the answer.change.there's no harm for changing n its not too late.
ive said n seen enough tru my whole entire life till now but deep down i feel incomplete.i cant stop seeking the light in me n i want to change until i find peace.i want to bring good things to others.kindness never ends n even maybe someone will not repay my kindness but HE knows n the only thing that i matter most is HIM.dont care bout wht others will think bout me but i care wht HE thinks as HE cares bout me n HE never abandon me even most of the time i forget HIM.HE loves us unconditionally n embrace the mighty love.
hope 2012 will bring all of us a transition in our life..be a better person..be good...patience...n live in peace...i hope i did something good today...a journey starts from a single step...
peace y'all n c'ya again...
me..sign out..

sea games 2011-football

hahahahahaha....gladly to announce that msian team won a match against the home team indonesia..1-0...such a relief...msian played well even though the home crowds jeered n provoked them esp during the national anthem...felt sad for them but proudly said that they have strong heart n mental...
i dont want to comment about the game...been comparing the fans between these 2 countries n i feel proud to be malaysian...maybe i was not born during the confrontation between malaysia n indonesia 1963...but it was the starting point of the unbalanced n cold relationship...sports n history is totally different but due to this it was just a point for them to be so furious n cold hearted.we helped them during the tsunami crisis, earthquakes disaster n they have millions of indonesian immigrants in malaysia and treat them well n nice n comparing to our students who studied there...but what i can say...they are so prejudiced n egoist...i dont know when they will end this 'cold war'...
sorry...my fellow indonesians...i am clueless as maybe some of you...but i hope we should end the war n start a new life in this new horizon...peace to all...

a thousand years

such a sweet song...can feel in my bones...how love finally united after such a long hurdle to conquer and overcome the hardship...hoping i will be one of the lucky person to be able reaching the stars...been listening over n over again how i felt i m in cloud nine...
can't wait to watch twilight saga-the breaking dawn...watched the clip n i feel soo in love...sigh...perfect!
enjoy the song...well done christina perri...!!!

I MISS YOU...

heart aching...prejudice...wht else would i think...arrghhh...!
enjoy the song...a really sad song...
u know who u r...
Happy Deepavali everyone...

the old pics...

as i looked upon the pics in my old memory card...i saw several pics of old me n friends n events that happened for the past 5 years..
as i looked through these pics,it reminded me of my old self n the new me.what a such transformation!i think...;)
but it made me to become the person i am now...stronger n bolder...

i remember the first time i had an accident...it was horrifying.my car skidded several times before fell into a drain.a few metres from it was a ravine.im lucky that i didnt hurt anyone n alive. i didnt turn out to be like other gals...cried n panicky...but instead i held to my shoulder n pat my self...n i even called my friend that i couldn't attend a meeting on the next day cuz i had an accident.be careful next time...so people...i downloaded several pics here of my 'tremendous' experience-dislocated n fractured shoulder n almost losing my life...n i didnt tell my mum n family after 2 days i had the accident...because i believed that this is my own mess so deal it by yourself...because i knew wht will happen if i told them right after the accident...frantic n screaming n keep on blaming myself...well..i dont need all these dramas..deal with it..sounds like i dont have a supportive family but it is not like that at all.it's just me on how i handle my problems...that make me stronger..yeahh..girl power!!
 

the final day....

the day has come. It is the final day for all the UPSR candidates...my pray to all my kids...do your best n give it all..Insya Allah...God is with you...
sorry been out of radar as i was busy with my kids preparation for the examination.is it a relief?i dont know but i have given the best n its up to them...just cross our finger...yeahh...
im not really in a good mood today..it is a mix feeling...personally n professionally...whatever the problem is...face it like a grown up-fact is a fact and face it-good or bad its part of our life...like i always said-problems are just part of a journey of our life..embrace it with open heart..whenever, wherever and whatever..Allah is always with me and even if there is not a single man alive, He is there...never abandoned me and dismissed me...thank you Allah...

my kids are in a battle war...pic taken so far not to distract them

the trip

finally i came back to my hometown...n surprised..surprised this time i was not with my 'bestfriend' but it was a longer version n on a rail track...an ETS train-a new electric train system which just newly operated.so it was an easy access to Ipoh from Seremban.it took almost 3 hours journey to arrive Tapah Road as it was my stop.n my sis, mum n my niece were already there waiting for me...i was relieved of seeing them..miss them soo much..i was in my hometown for 4 days and i need to go back to Seremban.n this time i was not alone. they joined the trip too..yeaaaa...i think this is a resort to reduce traffic on the road...n im really tired of having a massive jam especially during festive season...thnk you KTM...n by d way it just cost me around RM27 for the fare.so jimat!!

enjoy the pics...taken along the journey...

Alyah-Kisah Hati (MV with Lyrics)

a really sad song...sob..sob...
a love that never come true separated by death n wish to reconnect with him in the afterlife
a true love indeed
we will never knw wht will happen as we wished for something good in the end
only He knws...

I am free

 one of my favourite songs...how i'm thankful to God for giving me this precious life till the last breath...
enjoy the song...

Once I was a prisoner
Lost inside myself
With the world surrounding me
Wandering through the mysery
But now I am free

You gave me a breath of life
Unclouded my eyes
With a sweet serenity
Lighting a ray of hope for me
And now I am free


Free to live
Free to laugh
Free to soar
Free to shine
Free to give
Free to love
Free enough to fly

Once I was all so alone
Unsteady and cold
but your love rained down upon me
Washing away uncertainty

But now
I am free

murano v harrier...who will win?

the new harrier..wow..love the colour...think my love will win me on this...hahhaha...

pick one?murano or harrier??urrghhh...it is a hard decision...both of them are well recognized brand from Japan..good cars...best suvs...i dont know...i love the look of murano...look stylish n sporty...suits me...hehhehe but my love one prefer harrier...arguments...just a thought to think...please comment...headaches...

the bold n elegant murano...omg...i think he will never going to say anything..i will win!

Happy teacher's day

hi guys...sorry i've been missing for quite sometimes...
16th May...a teacher's day.a day that we will never forget esp for the teachers...we had fun n joy!!
however i have some perspectives to think on why did i choose to be a teacher...
reason no 1: been born in the teaching line as my dad was a teacher as well as my granddad n my bro n my cousins...the list will go on...
reason no 2: a looooong holiday as wht my mum expected but the reality nayy...not even a holiday...huhuhu...

yes..we create superman...

reason no 3: a modest income...yup do agree...we r not rich or poor but our earning make us happy for wht we r
reason no 4:a life line approach for our future...the kids...nothing can be compared to for learning about life n sociology of our surroundings...aka...the working place n parents...
reason no 5:am i patience?wow...i was surprised wht i have become to...being patience is not the real me but i have made a discovery about myself...thank you kids...
so...these are the 5 reasons why i want to be an educator...educate my self n people around me...i love my job!
a remembrance of the sacrifices n tears of the teachers that what made us today....thank you teachers!n pray to God that these honorable people to be blessed for their whole entire life...amin

Help...

when there's a will, there's a way...

me...yup...my will of earning extra money is stronger than before...

the big M has been haunted in our life since we were born...money to buy for diapers(misery for our parents) till now...loans for houses, cars, personal n the list goes on...as im not mistaken...our prophet Muhammad SAW mentioned in hadis there were 99 out of 100 ways to gain money through entrepreneurship(business)...

im just started my business (if i can say business...ahaks..)of selling sandwiches in my school n maybe later selling   jellies...n maybe starting on tutoring in Seremban area...insya Allah...let's cross our finger...

yup...it will be hectic life for me as u can see my daily routines are filled with making this n that until late night...hope God will give me strength n health...

why i've been doing extra jobs?Money is the main concern in paying all my expenses...but the main reason will be to further my study in Master...as i'm getting older (means shorter life...omg), lots of will power has been devouring me in accessing the ultimate life achievement...

hardship has been part of my life n i don't want to refill the emptiness of it in my life...enough is enough...let's turn the table around n no matter what i will be happy of trying instead being grumpy for all things that happen.

some people may say..hey...u can get easy money...but no thanks...u n me know what is that supposed to mean...so i sell things or service n u will buy it...that is the only rule that i have been hold...mistakes do happen n we ought to learn from it.don't repeat the same mistake especially when it comes to money...it makes people kill people...justice has been done based on money, rule of the world...huh...somehow it reminded me to be more ascertain in the moral values.we should value n appreciative in what God has given us...physical n mentally perfect...but what we do think is only money (worldly mentality) but we forget the ultimate purpose as a human being...to perform our duty as His humble servant..for the after life goal...huh...so much thinking...so many things need to do...it just make us drifted from the real path...we r just human...but humanity will survive...insya Allah...

back to my project...the thoughts, ability,the will and strength persuade me to move on...let's cross our finger together n hope it will be a success...a help from HIM means a blessed in our life...insya allah...

HERO...
really love this song...such a motivation...enjoy..

maulidur rasul n sport's day

me n my colleagues...

been a busy week for me...workload of preparing exam's questions for the coming monthly test, few activities been held...sport's day (few weeks ago) and today...maulidur rasul (prophet muhammad bday celebration).
as i am now staying with my friend (my 'love' still in the workshop) im stuck at hers n once a week we went back as i had a class every friday nite...feel sorry for her as she needs to send me back there...a tiring week...

sport's day-tarik tali

but today i will be coming home with a replacement car given by the owner of the workshop...thank you...yippie!feel good as im not depending on others...
so this week im on my own at my house n doing house chores...(been awhile since i moved in from early of the year...wht a mess..)

the winning team.. 

the kids..

as the sport's day..my team house won...yeaaa...!it's been such a memorable day coz we never won before...the team spirit had been so high n im proud of it..n for the first time we had a 'tarik tali' event among the parents n staff...the stiffness n ache after the event were unbearable...hehhe...thank god we had an off day...thnks boss!

chanting prayers around the field

maulidur rasul was an event that we celebrated every year as to show our love to our prophet Muhammad...we chanted prayers by moving in groups around the field as a celebration for the day...such an experience for the kids...
here are few pics of several activities....n the new pics of me...